maybe i am moving again

10 Jul maybe i am moving again

i am like many others having some stress filled times.

there are days i am ok feeling like there’s some kind of weird ass future and other days where i don’t see anything resembling hope. but it’s like my old roommate koa used to say ‘hope for the best expect the worst’ he was a wise man a wonderful person.

i have met so many wonderful amazing people during my time on earth.

so many i don’t speak with anymore, some who just faded away some who i turned away some who turned me away

it’s just how humans work.  what i wish i saw now was more unity…not a lady running over me because my glasses fell off at the store because it’s 110 god damn degrees and the mask makes my glasses slide (yes i am getting one of those things that keeps them on my head lol) and she was just so rude.  i got up from not seeing anything and how my glasses landed to her hitting me on her way out…..i almost fell over and i stood up and said oh i am sorry my glasses fell off but she was already gone….

i still harbor a little bitterness but i wonder when i will be done with certain things when i find it very easy to be done with other things.

i don’t make art right now i don’t do anything but work and walk and knit and cry i cry almost everyday but for me crying has been healing a purge if you will and not a terrible thing.

it’s very very hot here this next week and it makes wanting to walk very meh.

i guess i am leaving san antonio the first week of august.

that’s me.  always moving on.

peace